Haphazard Creative has always been a place to share creativity. I have not made much of my life issues here. I am going to now.
I am having a hard time dealing with things. I had a medication change at my last appointment. My doctor and I discussed escalating symptoms.
Since I lost my Mom, it has been increasingly difficult for me to believe I have a purpose. Being alone is not ideal, then going out is hard because I tend to isolate myself. I have trust issues exacerbated by paranoia.
My insecurity and self-censure grow. I am trying to continue a creative practice, but it is steadily more difficult. Dealing with Schizo-Affective Disorder has never been easy, but before, I had family support with me. I could reality check when I needed it. I believe it is why I have thus far survived.
I am trying to get a daytime schedule in the midst of all this, and it is complicating matters. I am typically a night owl.
I have several pain issues too.
Please be patient as I try to get through everything that is taxing me. I am going to attempt continuation, but tonight I feel like creativity is a bit luxurious. I need to survive; living is another level.
Elements may all
Come together to grant dreams
But it sometimes seems
That everything conspires to
Slow progress on every track.
© Jo Ann J. A. Jordan
Haphazard Creative 